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May 13th, 2004

02:25 pm - Experiences in an Ecuadorian Prison This happened just over a week ago but I´ve been lazy with posting. So Caitlin, a buddy of mine who´s all into the underground hip hop scene asked me to help her carry out some supplies to prison where she volunteers at. I´d heard about all the stories of the chaos in the Ecuadorian prisons, the administration going on strike, inmates burying themselves underground and others sewing their mouths closed and goin on hunger strike in protest to the poor living conditions and of course there´s the taking of hostages, which usually ends up being the volunteers, so naturally I was like "hell yeah! Can we go there now?" Caitlin was happy with my enthsiasm and we we´re both happy to talk about musak shit and bitch about hearing Madonnas "like a virgin" at least 3 times every single day spent in Ecuador including various techno remixes. Ugh. So the supplies consisted of some clothes, medical stuff, kids toys and shitloads of condoms. There´s a big aids problem out there apparently. So we took the bus with another friend of Caitlin´s they´re both from the same church volunteer group or something and apparently they were gonna smuggle me in their to help under the same pretence of me being from a church group..... the English branch. haha! So we roll up there and I´m told we´re actually going to the womens prison "ummm ok" I hear the chances of walking out of the mens prison without either emotional or physical scars are slim to none, then there´s the thing of getting out at all within that week and hell, I had a prty to get to that night so i settled for the womens prison. So, polioe dude at the door, asks for ID, Caitlin hands her bus pass, the other girl hands her Uni Id card and me... duh hands over my passport while muttering a small "what the fuck". So, no shakedowns, no metal detectors, I could have had an ati aircraft rocket launcher on my back and i doubt they would have cared. I also had my cell phone on me which after remembering a few episodes of OZ, I thought might have been a big deal.. until i met all the inmates and found out they all have cell phones too. So it´s not a hardcore concrete complex like UK prisons, it lokks scruffy like the rest of Ecuador, actually looks alot like the university I was teaching at, only with a high wall around the outside and with less.... stalls. Yeah some of the inmates run their own stalls and stores in the prison where they sell things like cheetos, coke, cocacola, nutella. So I´m chilling, the girls are getting their condoms and are happy, I get talking to some of the English speaking inmates. This one girl was from germany, she grew up in Manheim which is a town I´ve been to a few times. turns out she´s a big Tupac fan so we got talking. She´s tellin me some stuff about her being buried under the ground for five days. Hardcore. Then we get talking about how good amsterdam weed is. She tells me how i´m different from the other "church helpers". I laughed. So then there´s these 2 girls from NYC, they´re a riot. I love that NYC attitude. So they´re bitchin about the conditions in prison too, turns out that altho some things are different there, like cell phones, open walking around, long term relationships with the security etc, other things are fucked up, like they don´t have clean water and everyone is getting sick from the fucked up water. Then there´s the medical treatment, you got AIDS, you got slashed wrists, you bumped your toe. The Doctor sticks you on an IV drip. They´re big fans. So it turns out they´re striving for new music and shit so I´m thinking i can help them out. Catlin bragged about the kick ass cd I made for her, so I´m like "hell yeah i can sort you girls out with some tunes" The german girl begged for some Tupac, the NYC girls started laughing, "5 days buried there, girl you weren´t buried longer then 5 minutes" That made me laugh too. They´ve tempted me to come back, apparently one of the girl makes some kick ass pancakes, and with that nutella supply... well i´m sold. Oh and that CD I made for caitlin does kick royal butt, take a look. So apart from that but as always, lots of changes, which are gonna be contradictory to recent posts but thats the way the cookie..... bends. But if I told you now, that would ruin the surprise for some and it´s not due time yet cuz I have to be 100% emerald. But stay tuned..... Current Mood: calm Current Music: Mr Oizo - Flat Beat

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April 3rd, 2004

11:00 am - Last night was good......... Party.... drink.... surprise birthday... didn't know the birthday girl... drink.... sushi... drink... wasabi... drink... booty shaking... drink... I just went for a 20 minute speed run to sweat out all the alcohol from last night. I don't remember much but I do remember me + a microphone, singing out Sean Paul lyrics and various hip hop songs (background music provided) at the top of my lungs, grinding with a circle of girls all with our butts about an inch off the floor. Spark got his groove on wit some chica who didn't know much english but hell, body language is universal right? I think da bro mang had a good time, I think with recent stresses n shit we needed a good night out. So the party was kinda a get together for all the international students and someother peeps. It was funny to be getting fucked on wine and beer in Ecuador and to be talking to a bunch of peeps from baltimore, california, france, annnnnnnnd sunny ol England. Yep I got called out for being a fake brit by the majority because they heard the accent of this known as Daniella, who sported a southern brit accent (she's from *ahem* Bognor Regis *ahem* lol any brits reading this will find that hillarious and as you can imagine, she tells everyone shes from Brighton lololololololollerskates. So yeah, cuz my accent isn't anything like hers I'm a fake brit and i just pretend I'm a brit and don't know any spanish... just to get chicks. Or that's what they tell me. So yeah... drink!... Good times... Some girls frommy self defence class were at the party, they thought it was really funny how the teacher always does demonstrations on me and basically kicks my ass infronty of the class. Comedy gold there... Speaking of which, my classes at Uni are sweet. A lotta fun, especially self defence. The teacher there reminds me alot like my cousin, medium height athletic build, calm mannered and a total fuckin psycho. First lesson was sweet and we learnt some cool self defence moves, second lesson he's like "ok enough of this, if you really want to kill someone, there are three principal targets..." And yeah, the class knows about 8 ways to kill a person in 1 to 8 seconds. Current Mood: refreshed Current Music: N.E.R.D The Way She Dances

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March 31st, 2004

12:14 am - HIIIISSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS </font> It's great... teaching that is. Ok teaching sucks floppy donkey balls but for me any job is fun aslong as you make it fun. I've been teaching english at the University of Guayaquil for over two months now.. Teaching advanced English skills to a group of 7 girls who aren't exactly ready for advanced English is fun to say the least. They're all cheeky, sarcastic, feisty as hell , loud mouthed latin ladies. Some of which have a thing about bringing me food everyday, some of the older ones bring me their daughters. I'm serious. Oh for the record.. they call me by my middle name down here.. 'Alex' Norma: "so you have a wife?" Me: "Norma.... what's the pronunication of voiceless consonant sounds on words ending in 'ed'." Norma: "So you don't have a wife" Me: "No Norma,.... the question i just asked you..." Norma: "Did you see my daughter yesterday, she bonita no?" Me: "You crack me up, I know she jailbait tho and that ain't my thing" Norma: que???? Lupe: "Alex why you always speak fast difficult English when you laugh at us?" Me: "So I can make fun of you Lupe" Lupe: "Noooo! I go home to my bed and cry" Narcissa: "Lupe no go home to cry, she has pictures of Alex above her bed, maybe she go home to do something else, I don't know what tho" Cecibel: "Alex is blushing" Me: "I'm changing your exam results, you all get a big U in red ink meaning you suck" Narcissa: "suck? please Alex teach us the meaning of the word suck, i don't know the meaning of this word" (rest of class starts cracking up) Me: You guys don't pay me enough. Norma: "so you have a girlfriend?" And now, because i no longer work for the Uni of guayaquil.. I have to teach this crazy bunch at my place. So the past 6 weeks I've been teaching a bunch of kids in what i guess is the equivilent of summer school. The kids got seperated into 2 groups, the blues being the 10 and under...the greys being the teens. i now realize how much of a bastid I was as a teenage student, so they thought they'd be wiseasses throw some of my own medicine at me but I threw it back at them and you know what.... we've all a really good time. It's all coming to an end and the kids go back to their schools, some borught in cameras and we all did crazy poses and stuff. Then as I promised, I taught them all, greys and blues... some English insults. The most entertaining to explain were... "my daddy is a pimp" "you look like shit" and " your mother has a fat ass". Teaching kids in fun man. Tomorrow is the last day so we're all eating pizza and watching sex in the city cuz it's the only video we got in english and hell... it's english class. Oh and to end on a scary note... I'd like to dedicate this entry to Jamiee, not Jaime honey__ my crazy kiwi incestuous twin not even Jaime jamesla my crazy beaner friend... but infact... Jamiee jamiee_love because she scares the hell outta me.. wanna know why? It's because she goes from this to this. Current Mood: blah Current Music: Goofy: who dem gal they?

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March 18th, 2004

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March 16th, 2004

01:39 am - Ebay Whoring.... I gotta say it. I love Ebay, I do. From the heart. Since being in the states it's been hard to keep up with vinyl collecting. DJ's in the states I visited and down here in Ecuador have a thing for spinning CD's in Clubs. You untalented cheap bastids. So yeah, new hits get released, I can't stroll thru the thousands of local London vinyl stores and that's no good right? So that's where ebay comes in. Not only am I shopping to my hearts content but I'm becoming a regular buyer for certain peeps and I'm getting really good deals. And I've worked on my master list, the one with all the kicking old and new tracks i wanna get hold of and the list is slowly getting shorter. I'm so happy. Now if only I could find some Andre Nickatina on vinyl.......*fap* So umm yeah.... lil list of some of the stuff i bought in the last few days all on 12". NOTORIOUS B.I.G., One More HOUSE OF PAIN "JUMP AROUND" GUY "DANCIN" 1999 MCA PROMO 12" AKINYELE-PUT IT IN YOUR MOUTH/F ME 4 FREE EP RALPH TRESVANT 1990 RARE LP "SENSITIVITY" BLUE JEANS - YASMEEN (BLUE VINYL) 12" MUSIQ, Half Crazy 12-in LP Single NEW NOTORIOUS B.I.G., BIG POPPA Vinyl 12-in. BELL BIV DEVOE, Da Hot Sh** (Aight) Vinyl METHOD MAN/REDMAN, Blackout! LP NEW 112, Peaches & Cream Vinyl 12-in. NEW BABYFACE "THERE SHE GOES" BLACK ROB, WHOA Vinyl 12-in. Ebay..... Jewelry. I've never been a big fan of jewelry. Maybe it's cuz my cousins raised me with some class that I appreciate a nice watch over bling. Bling is......( Read more... ) Current Mood: cheerful Current Music: Beyonce- Me, myself + I

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March 14th, 2004

07:05 pm - Crunch time Ecuadors been going great. Pedro and his family attacked me again but life is still good. The teaching English thing has been going well. I teach a group of 7 girls who do everything in their power to put me on the spot and embarass me, I'm good at deviating and switching things back on them tho so it's all good. They bring me candy and food and stuff,...like always. I now have a private student so it's all a lil extra cash in the pocket, she keeps asking me if I have a girlfriend and brings her daughters to my class for me to uh... meet. Controversial no? I went to a meeting a week ago with Denisse at the Industrial studies faculty of the Uni I work for. Looks like they want to employ us to teach their students English as they've been learning English for a year but can't speak dick. Apparently. Use a stick and beat it into them eh. You can get away with certain things in a 3rd world country you know. ( If you wanna read the rest click here... it's a bit long and uh.... yeah, I miss my friends. ) Current Mood: creative Current Music: NERD - She wants to move

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February 5th, 2004

01:11 am - Ecuador update....... Salinas So what do you do when..... You're in a coastal country with fiiiiiiiine latina chicas, the sun is blazing and you've got the whole weekend free? You hit da beach! So Ecuador has a lot of cool beach towns, the most popular/busiest being Salinas. Salinas is about 3 hours drive from Guayaquil, which is about 1 hour when Mark drives. It has a couple of long beaches, lots of stuff to do, shops to visit and some cool bars to visit at night. This one club we went to a few times has a main hall, outside bar, swimming pool, volleyball court and football (soccer) field. Incase u ever felt.... active I guess. We rented out a weekend house in salinas, no point in tanning up all day, partying all night and then driving back to Guayaquil, if you're gonna enjoy ya weekends, may aswell do them right. The house was sweet, on a dusty road in the S.American outback, we could tell it was our street cuz it had the landmark 3 rocks in the street, then once you turned in you have the crazy wild dogs run and attack your car. I always thought that was hella tight but that's just me. So yeah, we're in the lil courtyard and theirs pig and chickens running around outside in the street, cool cool. Until one night when I was trying to sleep outside and the dogs picked a fight with the pigs and it was rowdy. Very rowdy, oh that's another thing, don't sleep outside in a hammock no matter how cool you think it is. Pedro and his family came and feated on me and I had over 33 mosquito bites along my arms, legs and feet. Attractive. So the first weekend in salinas was cool, I figured I'd confront my fear of drowning and give swimming atry for the first time in about.....8 years, the last time being the time I drowned, ofcourse. So, better buy some swim shorts, and practice my haggling skills, which went well. Bought a cool looking pair of shorts for $4, haggled down from $12 which I'm sure was the original price for everyone and not just gringos like myself. (uh huh) So I got in the beautiful sea on the busy beach with the friends and they tried teaching me how to float which... I guess I can kinda do now, that's a start right? Then I saw it........ and the ol' addiction for speed set in again and suddenly i felt like i was back on London streets revving up a 500cc Yamaha or my 175cc Italjet Dragster. Yes, salinas had jetski's. fuckmesidewaysiminheaven. So, it just had to be done. Elena, being the crazy teenage speedfreak she is decided to join me and we rented out a jetski and had a crazy time. The surprisingly nice and new jetski we rented was sweeeeet. It topped out at 45mph and just handled like a dream. So we did some crazy stuff, raced out to some big fishing boats and along by the Yachts and various people enjoying watersports of some kind. When were done my nice haggled swim shorts felt kinda funny, when i went and sat back down with Sarah,Mark and Denisse it felt a lil more breezy then before, I didn't think nothing of it until I reached down for my bottle of water by my feet and noticed my nuts hangling out of my shorts. What the fuck? Yeah my bargain of the century had frayed away in the important place and my balls we're hanging out like it was a nudest-plus-accesory beach. And....... with no places to change I had to walk with a towel around my waist like I was wearing a skirt all day. Attractive. Oh the second time we rented out a jetski we ended up with this shitty old p[iece of junk that was really lightweight compared to our first one and belted out alot of smoke. So 10 seconds after getting on it we capsize and i suddenly remember that I can't swim...... oh shiiiiiiiit. Yeah i did think I was gonna die but then I learnt with hands on experience that life jackets work, thank fuck for that. So the second jetski was shit, and the guy i rented from insisted he get on the back and show me how to fuck up the engine even more cuz at the end of the demonstration he had to open up the thing and pour some gas aswell as oil to make it more "gringo safe" probably. Plus the waves were out in bigger force then before so Elena chickened out with taking the driving seat and sat passenger style, apparently she didn't trust this jetski, so we're hitting the water at about 35mph when I hear elena screaming out some shit in spanish, I look to my right and there's this huge wave coming towards us, if it hit us we would have went under and we were just under a mile from the coast, so from skill outta nowhere i managed to turn the jetski a good 90 degrees and ride like hell away from the wave which was about to hit, from some luck outta nowhere the jetski decided to work properly for once and we outran the wave. Good times. So I guess you want some pictures huh?....... ( Click here for all the pics n stuff ) Current Mood: tired Current Music: Just watched Underworld.......

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January 31st, 2004

01:44 pm - Let the good time's roll. Just realized I've been here a month without any Ecuador updates... oops. But here it is, and I'll warn ya now, it's pic heavy. ( Click here to see the post ) Current Mood: busy Current Music: Oxide and Neutrino - Devils Nightmare

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January 22nd, 2004

11:25 pm - Slow as funk dot net Net connection...... 24K, and that's shared between 4 comps right now. That'd make uploading pics kinda difficult. No shit. But it's all jiggy baby, wanna know why? It's cuz I went insomniac and loaded up loads of pics from xmas in Ohio, all the way upto now, so here we go..... ( Click here to read on ) Current Mood: exhausted Current Music: Some funky Ecuadorian stuff

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January 14th, 2004

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December 24th, 2003

01:27 am - Xmas - over hyped? Well It's just turned xmas eve, I know most stores we're opem til midnight with everyone doing a frantic search for last minute gifts and treats. Damn... the commercial industry and economy really gets a kick out the holiday season. With so much money being spent everywhere it kinda gets you thinking about xmas and what it's all about. Nope, this isn't the bit where i start reciting the bible and the birth of Jesus Christ. Xmas to me is a hybrid of worldwide celebrations thru history merged into one thing. I know in Holland where the remainding members of my family live, on the 6th on December they celebrate the coming of Sainta Claus or Saint Nicolas as we'd call him. Saint Nicolas would travel to every city on a horse drawn sleigh to give gifts to children who were good. If the kids were bad then his servant 'Black Pete' would trick the kids and give them bags full of coal, and if they were really bad then Black Pete and his band of moors would put the kids in sacks, carry said sacks upon their backs and then beat the kids. You see being on santa's naughty is hardcore in some parts of the world, but in our western world we seem so spoilt. I love getting presents and cards as much as the next person. I was raised in a Christian home but chose to be atheist, back home you'd celebrate xmas no matter what religion you are. Is this right? Are we wrong to indulge in the celebration of someone if we don't believe in him? Does that make me false? Or have we let the festive hype that society drowns us in mould us into what we believe we have to do? Either way, I hope your holiday season is spent with people you love and it's everything you hope for. I know some of you who might read this are going through difficult times right now and my thoughts are with you. Merry xmas peeps. Current Mood: tired

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December 22nd, 2003

05:58 pm - some schtuff I finally managed to get all my cards and xmas presents sent off on saturday, a lil late I know. My oishy person should get their gift, my bro and sis should hopefully get theirs..... oh fuck I forgot to tell them I'm not coming home for xmas.... I'm going to hell. Who else.... ahh Jaime should get her Playboy hotpants, har har, she'll love em but damn.... express mail to New Zealand sucks, u gotta write what ya gifts are, how much they cost and put them on a green tag which they stick on THE OUTSIDE OF THE PACKAGE FOR THE RECIEVER TO SEE! How fuckin fucked up is that? So I called her up and made her promise that if she gets a package in the mail she has to rip the packaging off and burn it straight away. LOL I lied about the price of stuff anyway, from what I've heard, if the total stuff inside costs more then $20 the person who recieves it has to pay a fee.... just gets better and better huh? I think everyone's trying to cash in on the festive spirit. Ah well. ( Hmm many questions n schtuff about 2003 ) Current Mood: calm Current Music: watchin friends

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December 19th, 2003

01:12 am - Kristy's Bewbs So I'm doing the daily routine of talking to Kaylee,bebekaylee and Jeremy,lanthos. Jeremy himself has only recently converted over to the ways of lj and the two of them, (being the skanks that they are) told me I was long overdue an update, and rightfully so. So now, 2 days later I'm getting onto it. I've just eaten some macaroni cheese and for some reason I keep burping and it tastes like bubblegum. Back onto topic, well seeing as they wanted an update i asked them what I should talk about and i dunno how but the hot topic of the update will be the bewbs of Kaylee's friend. Known to the world as Kristy. Kristy... this one's for you babe. After all the licking, sucking, nibbling and general hands on research with your bewbs, I now feel that a 10 page document on your jugs should suffice. Ok, tell a lie, I actually don't know Kristy or her bewbs, but i heard they're nice, and she's legal, so I'll carry on. It shouldn't be too hard. ( ...Freud u be da man.) My efforts to extract photographic evidence of Kristy's boobage (hey maybe she hasn't got any so we need proof) has turned up a negative on the sucess-o-meter. This could be due to my laziness and somewhat easily gained random porn, titty jpeg's that seem to prounce freely amoung the fiellds of the intarweb and find themselves in my hotmail junk box. So instead of a 10 page document, how about a haiku! Kristy's mamary's Pearl necklace I'd like to give but are you legal? I KEEEED I KEEEEEEEEED. Ok, enough of that shizzle, for those who don't know, I'm heading to ecuador for 2 months. Not happy with the {quote Adam} snowy cold of the mid-west {/quote}, it's time to head down to the hawt weather and enjoy winter how it was meant to be enjoyed..... in the sun. I'm really looking forward to it, I've been told I can't bring my urban camoflague combat trousers. Aparently it's not the 'in' fashion down there, but hey, I'm a trendsetter so i'll sneak 'em in. This was the 'big' news in one of my previous posts, I didn't wanna mention it incase it didn't happen, and, like most things me and Sparky organize... it was done kinda last minute, but the tickets are booked and it's all going to be jiggy. I'm really looking forward to meeting Sarah and Denisse, oh and ofcourse, seeing my nutella sis in miami if it works out. Gotta show a lil 'xtra love to Denisse, she's gone out her way to grab a load of info and help make this dream a reality, so in true london style, Denisse, THIS SHOUT GOES OUT TO U AND YOUR CRU!! and word to dat. Ok kids, so while you're all freezing off your nutsacks and raisins, singing those same ol' lame ass xmas songs and playing card games with ya parents on new years... watching the countdown to 2004. I'll be blowing up shit with lifesize pinata's followed by cocktails on the beach.... oh yeah IN THE HEAT! HOT LIKE FIYAAAAAH and i'm out. Current Mood: cheerful Current Music: Watching Comedy Central

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December 11th, 2003

02:14 pm - Flattery will get you everywhere? Hell naw! Aiight, so I found this site for peoples like myself who are multi-racial. I think that's the correct term. Anyway so I signed up, found out it's got a huge community and there were some 600 peeps logged in when I was which was sweet. The chat rooms were lame, full of teens who can't manage a sentance but I had a laugh in there anyway So I made a profile, uploaded some pics and stuff and didn't think of it. They have their own msg program that pops up whenever you sign in to the site. So the following happened. Chaozz: Hey wasup Dubz_online: Wadup Chazz Dubz_online: I mean Chaozz Chaozz: lol Chaozz: thats ok Chaozz: Hey I just saw you're site and wanted to say you're really cute (so at this point i've checked the profile to find out that Chaozz is some negro dude and I figure he's seen the pics of me and some girls and thought I was the one of the girls) Dubz_online: ummm bro... which pic are you looking at? Chaozz: Oh I saw all the ones in your gallery one with u and some girls and one i think your on the subway or something Dubz_online: umm.... well that's very flattering, and i appreciate the compliment. Where this becomes unfortunate for you is the part in my profile that says "male seeking female" Chaozz: mah bad Dubz_online: Sorry for the confusion Chaozz: dats cool, you are cute tho, and british! Chaozz: peace! Dubz_online: Peace. Ok, so that was interesting...... What was more interesting was 20 mins later. thugnigga_4lyfe: whats up cuteness Dubz_online: *looks around* say wha? thugnigga_4lyfe: yeah im talking to you cutie Dubz_online: bro.... thugnigga_4lyfe: i didnt see no azz pics u gotta cute ass too? Dubz_online: well i have been told.... but hold up... (checks profile) thugnigga_4lyfe: want sum action on dat azz Dubz_online: bro.... is my profile homofriendly? thugnigga_4lyfe: yo u seen my profile i no u want dis Dubz_online: but is my profile homogay? thugnigga_4lyfe: who cares cum get sum real thug in your ring Dubz_online: Are you rich? thugnigga_4lyfe: platinum status baby Dubz_online: If you pay 5K I'll pretend to be your online boyfriend thugnigga_4lyfe: haha you a funny nigger too Dubz_online not as funny as this chat we're having thugnigga_4lyfe: so when u wanna hook up Dubz_online: SHOW ME THE MONEY thugnigga_4lyfe: ill show u in your tight ass Dubz_online: Why can't the girls on the thing get this freaky like this thugnigga_4lyfe: u don want them u need a real thug Dubz_online: bro I need a winning lottery ticket and less niggerz trying to get my mulatto ass. thugnigga_4lyfe: but u look freaky as fuck son Dubz_online: Check my status bro "mang seeking womang" = no homofaghey thugnigga_4lyfe: so why u still talkin to me Dubz_online: Because it's funny as hell thugnigga_4lyfe: fuck u bitch Dubz_online: and yo mama. Peace. Ok so it didn't end there cuz I had a total of 5. yes 5 brothas trying to get with the british mulattos. No it's not a gay site and... urrrgghhhh where the ladies at? Current Mood: confused Current Music: Red Rat - Shelly Ann

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December 10th, 2003

11:50 pm - You have a problem..... solve it. I'm struggling to understand people again. Why we thrive on drama so much and are dependant on so many things emotionally. By no means is this a criticism in any sense. More like me making an observation in a robotic view. I could elaborate on those two but what I'm actually more interested in is problems. Problems are an amazing thing to me because they are an interactive dilemma which shows how us as people are different. For example, off the top of my head, mid afternoon a car has run out of gas and stopped on an busy road, one persons initial reaction may be to panic, another persons initial reaction would be to find a solution. This is just a simple scenario to show how human thought plays a part in how we deal with things. But, what I'm wondering is what it takes for the individual to panic. Had the situation been different, would the second person have panicked too? What would it take? Lets say the car stopped at night, lets also say the road was derelict leaving the person alone miles from civilization in unfamiliar surroundings,the cell phone battery has died. Has this person started to panic yet or are they still calm, collective and thinking about their solution? At what point would you start to panic? Now logic tells me that no matter what the situation given is, the best thing to do is to come up with a solution to your problem, and this works in any case, whether it be a car out of gas, paying a bill when you're broke or even choosing the best gift for a loved one. But still, there's always a point where we don't look for the solution. Why? I'm not saying I'm any different, many a time a problem has entered my life and I've chosen not to deal with it, I guess trying to understand the decisions of others will help me understand my own. But then again.... we are all human..... and we are all different. Current Mood: thoughtful

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December 8th, 2003

06:46 pm - SCARY PICS OF DUBZ. YAR! ( SHIVER ME SHRIUKENS, THAR BE AN UPDATE HERE BY DUBZ THE PIRATE. ) Current Mood: bouncy Current Music: Kelis - milkshake

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